So my plan was to come back to blogging full force here shortly. I'd lost my voice and just all around sounded horrible for the past few weeks after being sick so I haven't uploaded andy videos. I also felt like I've had all the ideas for the blog but I just can execute them.
Then something horrible happened - my little Emrys had to be put down on Saturday. On Friday he was fine. We even were hanging out on the porch finally enjoying the warm weather. Then on Saturday morning he suddenly became weak. I thought maybe he'd had a stroke or a seizure or something becuase he was breathing funny and when he walked he collpased. After rushing him to the emergency clinic I found out that he'd had a mass around his stomach...and it'd had started to bleed. He was weak from the blood loss.. With nothing done he'd be gone with in a few hours. With aggressive chemotherapy, as it was probably cancer, he maybe had 8 months. With the help of my family and Zach's I knew the best decision was to put him down. To not let him suffer. I said good bye to him one last time - they brought him in wrapped in the cutest teddy bear blanket. I never expected not to leave with him. Even though, in carrying him to the car and into the clinic....I knew that he wasn't in good shape, for whatever reason.
After they put him down, I took him to Zach's parent's house in a little cardboard coffin. We burried him, with his hamburger and his monkey, by the other family dogs out by the pond (one of his favorite places).
I can't believe that my family dog back in Virginia passed and then a little over a month later I lost my little guy. He was a smart little dog, friendly, loved to play fetch, loved to swim, looooved to be outside. And I really miss him. If there is one thing I've learned though is that life continues on. I never thought yesterday would end....and then I woke up this morning. I will always remember that Friday evening where we spent 4 hours out on the porch enjoying spring..
So, needless to say, I'm going to be taking a break for a little while longer. Just a little while longer.......just a little while.